Allow me to introduce to you someone who has become a very dear friend in the blogging world, Deborah Crocker. Her inspiring story gives us hope to believe that God is able to deliver us from any bondage, including one of food addiction. Having lost over 90 pounds in her 60’s her life testifies of the power of transformation. Deborah just released her book The God Plan Daily inspiration for victory over the scales, a very authentic, transparent look at how she conquered a lifetime struggle. It is my desire that you too will be inspired by her faith.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! 2 Corinthians 5:17 NIV
Throughout my life, I’ve suffered from people pleasing, co-dependency, food addiction, shame, embarrassment, guilt, fear, inferiority, unworthiness, sense of failure, and undeserving. This resulted in my obesity, weighing 241 pounds, eating to subdue my emotions. Thanks to God and His mercy I have now been delivered from 92 pounds excess weight and now in the process of victory living.
In recollection, I realized what I suffered most from was “not being good enough.” I always thought I never looked good enough, never cooked good enough, never cleaned my house good enough, never a good enough Mother, and not even a good personality. Whenever anyone criticized me, it only reinforced I was not “good enough”. It seemed I never achieved “good enough.”
I don’t know how it started. We like to blame our parents, our siblings, our friends, and our spouses, but they’re struggling to overcome “not good enough” too. Could this cause divorce, infidelity, alcohol abuse, drug abuse, and other addictions, just because we think we’re not good enough or we tell others they’re not good enough.
The blame belongs to the destroyer, the voice of the accuser that whispers “You’re never good enough, and you don’t deserve a good life.” God is healing me from “the accuser’s voice- never being good enough.” Victory feels great!
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. Ephesians 2:8-9 NIV
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. John 8:36 NIV
We’re can never be good enough, but isn’t that why He died for us.
The following is from the book God gave me, The God Plan, Daily Inspiration for Victory Over the Scales. My crying out in defeat was the beginning of my victory. As you read this excerpt, it seems hopeless, but know God has now healed me of 92 pounds and He’ll heal you too! Just sit at His feet and listen as He speaks to your heart.
Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them from their distress.
Psalms 107:6 NIV
Lord Jesus, I don’t even know what to say? How did I get here? Why did I keep eating until I hit this number? Insanity describes all my actions, or at least those about food. I don’t know where to turn or what to do. You have talked to me about my gluttony many times before, but here I am at 241, the biggest ever. You have shown me mercy and grace beyond my comprehension. I have asked for forgiveness for over a million times and You were always there ready to forgive me. I don’t know why? I have tried all sorts of diets, including accountability partners, only to fail them all and admit another failure.
I really don’t want stomach surgery. I don’t like surgery, but I do like the results I see on others who had this surgery. But Lord, we both know that the way I overeat I would just bust out the staples and be an example of gastric bypass failure. It seems that everything I have tried to stop overeating I have failed.
Lord, I know You are my only hope. I have lost my battle, my war on my compulsive overeating. I feel totally defeated. What do they say, “the thrill of victory, the agony of defeat”? I am in the agony of defeat now. I really don’t want to keep eating until I blow up. I have heard, “You have to hit bottom before you comes to your senses”. Am I at my bottom now?
Last Sunday, in my heart, You told me, “Today is the first day of your healing”. Well, I have overeaten every day since, unstoppable, with great quantities of sweets and junk food. I am not healed, in fact I have gotten worse. So here I am, the biggest I have been in years. Do I just keep getting bigger? I don’t want to, but what can I do? I am trapped.
Do I ask another person to be my accountability partner? I have already failed all my previous partners; I was unaccountable to all of them. A friend suggested that I take this pill so I could eat anything I want and still lose weight. Lord, we both know that’s impossible. There is no way I could just take a pill, eat whatever I want, and still lose weight. There is something called ‘self-control’ and I know it does not come in the form of a pill.
Do I need to get professional help since I just can’t stop eating? I have no self-control, no will power, I am completely defeated. Do I need to go to a counselor for help?
“My child, come to Me for I am your ‘Counselor’. I will instruct you, comfort you, and I will heal you.
And He will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Isaiah 9:6 NIV
When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy. Psalm 94:19 NIV
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3 NIV
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